Two Face (it’s long, but bear with me)

Isn’t it so weird how we can be totally different people depending on where we are and who we’re around? When I’m around people who I enjoy being around, I almost always have a good time, I feel energetic and great (unless I really screw up, which I’ve done way too many times). Then when I get home I feel awful. Everything comes flooding back; regret, loneliness, frustration, you name it. Everything that everyone goes through and feels like they’re the only one, I feel like I’ve been through. I have my huge problems, then I have my less critical but almost as painful problems and insecurities. I would go through the latter, but none of them are anything that have never been said before, and I really don’t want my sincerity to become something to satisfy people’s cravings for gossip. The last thing I want is someone to read this and think to themselves “Sucks to be him,” then either write some insincere rosy comment that took like 5 minutes to think of, or not write a comment as if they had never been here at all. I don’t want to seem selfish and self-pitying, because I know that I’m not the only one in this fight. So here’s a shout out to everyone who’s ever been alone, who’s ever been furious with themselves, and who’s ever had crushing regrets. Here’s to everyone who’s ever felt hopeless, you’re not the only ones. We’ll get through this, but not without trusting in God’s forgiveness and the support of everyone else around us. If you know what I’m talking about, give me a little bit of confirmation. Write your sincere thoughts, and don’t conveniently act like you were never here. (you can at least write “no comments” though not preferably)